orchard lake road

"my girl
got a girlfriend."
:yung dro

been on the road for 3 hours

on a trip that shouldve taken 25 mins

tops.

fuck construction and it's mistress congested traffic.

oh, and i think a moth just bit me on my foot.

didn't know they had teeth.

lady-wife and i are going out tonite.

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smoking ciggarettes at nite

"they can
feel it
all
over."
:stevie wonder: sir duke

the heart is a dangerous construct.

more powerful, i hypothesize, than the mind

see, u can use several devices to subdue to mind.

sex, alcohol, work.

but nothing overcomes the heart.

"oh, mercy mercy
me
oh
things aint what they used to be
where did all
the blue skies....
go."
:marvin gaye

can't smoke it away.

can't drank (not drink. drank)

can't learn, fuck, ignore, shop, vacation, cry, rationalize, hair flip, blog, video game, masturbate, pray, laugh, replace

it away.

the heart

shall NOT be ignored.

"i wanna tell u, baby
the changes
i been going thru
listen u..."
:aretha franklin: until u come back 2 me

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confessions

"once a
good girl
is gone bad
she's gone
forever."
:jay-z: song cry

sorta hoping this aint true

cuz i been getting my durt-bag on for a minute now.

i don't even wanna be like this

stroking ex's. ex's w/girlfriends.

yeah, i know.

i know.

i do.

"its been a long
long
time coming.
but
i know...
a
change gone come."
:sam cooke

at least, i hope so.

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i o'nt even believe in it. but i miss it.

"God
i don't know
where
2 begin.
im so lost
i can't even
pretend....
like a friend to my heart
key to my
future.
lover of soul....
passed me this passion
pushed back my action
like we couldn't deal.
said something bout timing
paths not aligning.
but
i need (him) still.
left my heart with
lovely strangers.
one way street headed for
danger.
closed my eyes
but still can't fade (him)
(he's) been there for years.
i've been hurt
messin wit lesser.
even though
i do know better.
spend my nights writing love letters.
landing on
Def Ears...
God
i ask
u
for
clarity...
there's an answer
there's gotta
Be.."
:eric roberson: def ears

thanks, lady-wife.

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"i tried not to write...."

"it seems
the pain just shows
up
on the pad
as the pen just
cries away...
tried not to
write
a song so sad."
:eric roberson

dude.

a dog, a girlfriend, and a second chance

at

happiness.

or

maybe a 1st chance.

damn

"i guess this is our song..."

or my song.
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pretty girl

"were u
hurt by love
before...
one day ure gonna wake up
and find....
time cannot rewind."
:pretty girl: eric roberson

some where

between the dots u see

and the border of the photo.

is a lake.

a pond

which u cannot see

for the darkness masks its presence.

sorta auto.bio.graphic.al

don't u think?

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"so, so
much more."
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replacements

"with ten miles behind me.
...and 10,000 more to go...
:james taylor:sweet baby

sometimes.

u have to recognize a replacement.

take it for what it is.

never quite filling the shoes of the original.

and

be ok with it.

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love.ly stranger(s)

"left my heart
with lovely
strangers....
I'm so lost
i
can't even
pretend."
:eric roberson

as of late

i

have been a

lovely stranger.

to myself.

pleased (not really) to meet u....

-1-

strung out

"smoke one with ya folk
drank one w/ya boy...
i know its been a little while
since we
had a little fun.."
:anthony david

addictive personality is what they call it

where im from

they just say

"u go hard."

same difference.

i remember when i still possessed the capacity to love.

and i

i would love so hard.

brash. inconvenient. in-your-face. atypical

love.

seems like i become addicted to all which brings pleasure.

feels good.

sex. drugs.and

rock and....

neo-soul.

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"...don't u ever forget it."

"what's good for the soul
is
good for the body..."
:anthony david



in an effort (how's THAT for being proactive) to move the fuck on with MY life

i gotta get this shit off my chest:

so, fuck u.

collectively and separately in no particular order:

1. student loan people: dude. completing college was the greatest hustle ever.

for the government.

way to financially RAPE me for the next 12-25 yrs.

'preciate it.

2. ex-boyfriends: fuck u and the dicks (various sizes/widths) u came in on.

thanks for the life lessons, though

3. haters, in general: u bitches NEVER 'got' me. u claim im stuck up, elitist, selfish, etc.

when, in fact, i am NONE of that.

u ho's just seem to think so.

your loss.

4. liquor: u are a dirty whore. almost had me.

almost doesn't count.

5. doubt/greed/ discontent/hate/depression: "yall only get 1/2 a bar.

fuck y'all niggas"
:jay-z.


woo-sah.

btw, the pic is of anthony david performing.

i was there.

u may thank the lovely 'lady-wife' for that.

she rawks.

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